This post has been pending since I honestly don't know when. This entity in life known as college has literally sucked the little amount of optimism and hope that was left in this exceedingly peace-deprived mind of mine. That person who told me "Study well for your +2, college will be a breeze" should die a thousand deaths, worse than the way Harry killed Voldemort, more chilling than the way Sauron was defeated, more brutal than the way anyone dies in the Saw series (sorry, I couldn't think of any badass brutal scenes at the moment, so bear with me).
The point is, despite all this craziness of classes, assignments, tests, drama, I still couldn't get a depressing feeling out of my head. Maybe its just how this semester passes by, hopelessly wondering whether you'll pass in the subjects that bore the life out of you, or sit through another lecture that sucks every last bit of consciousness that's left inside your body. And then, I dream.
I dream of home, my mother, my brother, my refrigerator, my TV, my bed... Ughhhhh, it's so frustrating to sit on my bed here inside my room and type in this heat with nothing but a headache.
The fact that college is so hard is actually very relative. I'm the kind of person who cares about her image in front of teachers, her marks because being a 'good-girl' is hard-wired into my brain, even if it's at the cost of being called the nerd (that's nothing new, I've been associated with people with high intellect all my life and I have absolutely no regrets). In fact, having a long conversation about anything related to anything, be it a newspaper article, or politics, or even football, gets me high. Math creeps me out at times, probably because I never had the correct guidance to actually enjoy the subject, I took it more like a hurdle to cross rather than a passion like most of my IITian friends (probably that's why I'm not one of them). Otherwise, I enjoy Physics, and Chemistry alike. But the Chemistry that falls under Engineering may fall out of your head the second you read it. It's deceiving, cruel and very volatile like most of the reagents in my Chem Lab. Nevertheless, I don't mind studying it or discussing it with my friends.
Then comes the basis of my next three years in college -Programming.
The fact that I never really took it seriously in school, and did it just to score the highest in class and never really thought that I'd be pursuing it later on in life has made me pay the price in a horrible way. My best friend is literally an ace, and sometimes when I see him writing vigorously on the sheet of answers, it makes me a little jealous and sightly wistful at the same time, and I wonder "Where was I when this was being taught in school?". But then I realize, that I never really took any of this seriously.
The point is, every time you learn something anywhere; be it school or coaching, or tuition or even the dining table with your family, all it takes is a little effort and interest to remember it. You never know when you need it in life. For example, if at some point in my life, I'm working at a pharmaceutical company as a managing director (oh yes, big dreams right there) I might have to take a call at some point of time, and my knowledge of chemicals that was taught to me in my first year of Engineering may come flooding into my mind, and I'll be able to make the right decision. That might not be a very apt example but here's another true story that I experienced today.
At the recruitment test of IEEE in my college today, I signed up for the Computing and IT part of the core team. The test contained questions on C, C++ and basic computer related problems. I was shocked to see how little of C I remembered. Of course I could brush it off saying that I learnt it years back, how can anyone possibly remember all this.
But the thing is, I should have.
That's how funny life is you see, I'm barely 20 and yet I'm talking as if I've experienced the worst possible hardships in life. Thankfully, I haven't made too many mistakes that a girl of my age may make, so I'm quite aloof at that matter. But my life lies ahead of me. There'll be hundreds of decisions to take and millions of new things to learn. I just need to take in as much as I can and I pray that God will take care of the rest. :)
Lastly, I'd like to apologize for coming out with such a random post, but the credit goes to Jake Gyllenhaal and Anne Hathaway for starring in this absolutely pathetic movie called "Love and Other Drugs" that made me realize that I wasted a significant part of my life watching that nonsense. Hence I'm compensating it by writing a much awaited blog post.
The point is, despite all this craziness of classes, assignments, tests, drama, I still couldn't get a depressing feeling out of my head. Maybe its just how this semester passes by, hopelessly wondering whether you'll pass in the subjects that bore the life out of you, or sit through another lecture that sucks every last bit of consciousness that's left inside your body. And then, I dream.
I dream of home, my mother, my brother, my refrigerator, my TV, my bed... Ughhhhh, it's so frustrating to sit on my bed here inside my room and type in this heat with nothing but a headache.
The fact that college is so hard is actually very relative. I'm the kind of person who cares about her image in front of teachers, her marks because being a 'good-girl' is hard-wired into my brain, even if it's at the cost of being called the nerd (that's nothing new, I've been associated with people with high intellect all my life and I have absolutely no regrets). In fact, having a long conversation about anything related to anything, be it a newspaper article, or politics, or even football, gets me high. Math creeps me out at times, probably because I never had the correct guidance to actually enjoy the subject, I took it more like a hurdle to cross rather than a passion like most of my IITian friends (probably that's why I'm not one of them). Otherwise, I enjoy Physics, and Chemistry alike. But the Chemistry that falls under Engineering may fall out of your head the second you read it. It's deceiving, cruel and very volatile like most of the reagents in my Chem Lab. Nevertheless, I don't mind studying it or discussing it with my friends.
Then comes the basis of my next three years in college -Programming.
The fact that I never really took it seriously in school, and did it just to score the highest in class and never really thought that I'd be pursuing it later on in life has made me pay the price in a horrible way. My best friend is literally an ace, and sometimes when I see him writing vigorously on the sheet of answers, it makes me a little jealous and sightly wistful at the same time, and I wonder "Where was I when this was being taught in school?". But then I realize, that I never really took any of this seriously.
The point is, every time you learn something anywhere; be it school or coaching, or tuition or even the dining table with your family, all it takes is a little effort and interest to remember it. You never know when you need it in life. For example, if at some point in my life, I'm working at a pharmaceutical company as a managing director (oh yes, big dreams right there) I might have to take a call at some point of time, and my knowledge of chemicals that was taught to me in my first year of Engineering may come flooding into my mind, and I'll be able to make the right decision. That might not be a very apt example but here's another true story that I experienced today.
At the recruitment test of IEEE in my college today, I signed up for the Computing and IT part of the core team. The test contained questions on C, C++ and basic computer related problems. I was shocked to see how little of C I remembered. Of course I could brush it off saying that I learnt it years back, how can anyone possibly remember all this.
But the thing is, I should have.
That's how funny life is you see, I'm barely 20 and yet I'm talking as if I've experienced the worst possible hardships in life. Thankfully, I haven't made too many mistakes that a girl of my age may make, so I'm quite aloof at that matter. But my life lies ahead of me. There'll be hundreds of decisions to take and millions of new things to learn. I just need to take in as much as I can and I pray that God will take care of the rest. :)
Lastly, I'd like to apologize for coming out with such a random post, but the credit goes to Jake Gyllenhaal and Anne Hathaway for starring in this absolutely pathetic movie called "Love and Other Drugs" that made me realize that I wasted a significant part of my life watching that nonsense. Hence I'm compensating it by writing a much awaited blog post.
1 comments:
Its always nice to read your post! I agree with you, whoever said that "Study well for your +2, college will be a breeze" should die.
And your C++, well I'm sure your best friend can help you with that, and really shouldn't be jealous! ;-)
All the best for your futher studies, hope you get the best in your life! :-)
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